My cousin

and I have been talking about some stuff regarding stuff, which involved getting my deviantArt account back to life. Argh, I know I've said this so many times before and I really wanted to NOT post about this until I'm dead sure about it. However, I think I should really pick up on my drawing. I've always thought of myself as being on this long break from art but it doesn't seem that way anymore. I really want to make time for art because drawing is something that I can't see my self letting go of.
We've been planning on doing commissions lately, something that, along with art requests, I haven't had the guts to do primarily because I don't consider myself "good enough" for any of those. It's like there's so much for me to learn before I can even fathom of telling people "ART REQUESTS OPEN!". I'm actually proud of my cousin for being able to do such a thing. I couldn't because of many things such as work and deadlines. I sometimes wish I had more time but then again, I realized, having no time is not a decent excuse since we all have 24 hours a day. I guess it's all about managing it.
I've been thinking of accepting commissions. I still haven't set my mind on doing it because I think it's such a big decision for me to make. Yeah, I take these things seriously because I consider this as a step towards my dream career...... which has been fluttering away from me in the past few years, thank you. I've been inactive for a very long time, it's like I almost gave up on drawing in general... which I haven't. I really should just have fun instead of worrying a lot. I still haven't decided on what to do or how to go about my plans. I really want to push through with many of these plans. There are quite a number of them, if not a lot. And they're coming at me with so much anticipation, excitement and nervousness in between.
Anyway, I'm not sure how many of you are still reading any of my journal posts. This is just me spilling my thoughts. And if you have any time to spare, do tell me what you think.